Just to keep ourselves at least enough to carry on

A little old, but my sentiments exactly.

hypnopop:

tamburina:

Indeed, people speak sometimes about the “animal” cruelty of man, but that is terribly unjust and offensive to animals, no animal could ever be so cruel as a man, so artfully, so artistically cruel.

Fyodor Dostoevsky

So I came onto tumblr today and of course, like some of the other people that I follow, I wondered what the purple was all about. As I went down my dash I found out the reason and then I proceeded to look at my shirt and I thought:shit! For I was unknowingly supporting (well not really because I didn’t know) something that I don’t believe in at all. I usually don’t care enough to write things like this, but because I am a homosexual (not gay or queer or whatever bullshit terminology but rather a bubbling down to the mere biological facts of things) and because of the reactions that have come out as a response to the suicides of theses teens who have been bullied in school, I will write.

I’d like to make this as succinct as possible so: no I do not agree with wearing purple to support the gay community or to commemorate the teens who have killed themselves or to stop bullying or any of these excuses that have been unconsciously manufactured by the minds of people as to obfuscate a simple fact. This fact being an underlying, but very evident, function of our minds - this is to separate, to categorize, to identify, to label, to subcategorize ad infinitum. Our minds do this naturally, as a mere functional and survival technique, and I am not necessarily condemning this function because that would be idiotic (insofar as condemning the natural) rather I am trying to evince the realities of our “modern society” that has constructed itself upon a basis which uses this function as paradigm. This function, that has been exploited to gross extents, has caused all of the tribulations of mankind, well those created by mankind at least, and this whole “Gay” issue is not different in any way.

Is it not separation and division that lead us to isolate or disjoint ourselves from others? Does this perpetual division not eventually, and rapidly in most American cases, lead to contempt which swiftly and oh so easily turns into hate? I believe that this is the case.

So to wrap it up. In creating an identity for the Gay community, in supporting the choices of 6 individuals and thus converting them into martyrs for their situation - perennial angst in response to bullying, a self-denial and a denial by society of “who they are”, an extreme sentiment of loneliness and isolation in response to another societal group or the majority. By commemorating them are we not equally supporting division (well in my perspective American culture is based upon that but I shall leave that for another time)? Are we not taking it upon our shoulders to condemn the majority for their actions when the reality of the situation is that it really isn’t any one individuals fault. Yes, because in our society today this is all we can, unfortunately, do. Hold onto dear life and whatever ideals we have constructed for ourselves while the minority constantly wants to trump the majority and inevitably become the majority itself. Not saying that gay people want to take over the world or anything but rather that all subsections of society are in constant conflict with each other (regardless of what most peoples politically correct minds tell them).

If this is the case, should I blame anyone? Should I commemorate anyone? I categorically refuse to do either of these things because each one would bring even more schism than that which exists now. It is my personal belief that an understanding of the conceptions of these ideologies and how they have come into relationship with each other is a better way or more efficient (logically and spiritually) way of dealing with things. A middle-path to understanding rather than an absolutist portrayal of our sundered ideals. In reality any other alternative would be better than behaving like the artistically cruel beings that Dostoevsky describes us as:

Killing each other to be killed by others or by our own selves.

Is an alternative possible? I believe it is - however this is me, and I am not the many.

Please feel free to respond, question, comment, etc. I will respond to everything about what I have written.

(via inkejaculate)